It never felt
Like it was meant
For me
The whole place
Felt masculine
Only because it was
Full of men
Made by men
They were not trying
To exclude me
But it is impossible
To be your full self
When part of your
Identity
Has no place to exist
In your current setting
I acted smaller
Because
I could feel the pressure
Pushing down my neck
My expressions
My ideas
Were just shadows
Of what
They could have been
If I was able to be
My whole self
All the time